“Life Is Short: Break The
Rules. Forgive Quickly, Kiss Slowly. Love Truly. Laugh Uncontrollably And Never
Regret Anything That Makes You Smile” This saying summarize the way I am living
my life now. Babies can repair broken hearts and they also can make your
feelings burst up. A new exciting and amazing adventure was coming to our
family to change our daily routines and make them busier but more interesting
at the same time. As human beings we experience stages of life but most of the
time we do not know how to handle changes. It is a baby who has changed my
life: Jose Guillermo, my nephew. He taught me to share with my family, to
express my feelings without fear, to forgive and also taught me that I really
needed to enjoy my family more. But the funniest of all this is that he does not
realize that.
Five years ago I lived the experience that changed the
perception of love for my family. When my mother passed away nothing was like
before; I had more responsibilities at home as a matter of fact: To prepare
some food, wash the dishes, do the laundry, clean the house, etc; and all this
chores made me feel really angry, frustrated, lonely and sad at the same time.
I did not realize that my middle single brother and my father felt the same
emptiness but they did not share neither did I. My oldest and my younger
brothers lived in another house and I did not know how they faced this
situation. Even though we had endured the first years without her, the pain had
not gone at all. Next years we turn on the page every single day, in Easter or
Christmas we tried to enjoy time together but when Mother’s Day came, we missed
her more than the other days.
The year my mother died, my oldest brother Mariano got
married with Tania, a lady he met while he was working out of the city. I did
not like her the first time I met her, I was jealous and I treated her bad.
Later on, the new family was expecting a baby, we felt happy again. We forgot our
sadness, differences and problems because after five years waiting, the good
news came. Tania and Mariano rented an apartment just fifteen minutes away from
my house. On weekends, I visited them and we share some time together, I used
to put instrumental music on Tania’s womb already loved the baby, even though I have not held him in my arms.
One day, Mariano told me about a friend of him who was selling a puppy, I
bought it; It was called “Tobby” and we thought we would have two babies at
home. Later my brother decided to stay at home because of the delivery. I moved
to my father’s bedroom to make a sacrifice because of the baby”.
The last time Tania visited the doctor,
he said: “The baby will be born on June 15th”, 2012 and he gave some
recommendations. She had to check the baby’s movements or any strange situations
she could consider she had. After two weeks, Tania visited her doctor again
because she did not feel well. The doctor said she has prelacy and she was
under risk, so she has to stay in the hospital that night, she was scared and
nervous because she never expect anything like that. It was an uncomfortable moment
for our family and friends. People texted us some Bible passages to comforted us,
all that stuff made my faith and hope grow up more and more. Then Jose
Guillermo was born! for me nothing was more important that day.
The new member of the family
arrived to the house and we all were happy. Mariano and Tania stayed with the
baby in our house for 40 days; The first two weeks were really hard at home; especially
at night. The baby slept just during the day and at nights he used to cry
desperately from nine to two or three a.m. but my little baby Tobby, liked to
play and destroy everything, everywhere!
He barked a lot. Most of the time the house was full of things
everywhere; dirty clothes, pampers, feeding bottles, turn shoes, papers on the
floor. I was stressed out, angry, I wanted to live alone, in a quiet house, in
another place.
Furthermore Oscar, my middle
brother and my father were complaining about the dog. He became a big problem
for my family and they constantly were grumbling for the uneasy dog that I had.
I blame Tobby most of my problems were
his fault but I loved him deeply. Then, I took the decision to look for a new
home for Tobby. One afternoon the dog was moved to another house and the next
day my brother determined to leave the house and move to my grandmother’s house
in Comayagua. The baby of my eyes was leaving because of my fault and I felt
destroyed and puzzled. They left home and the house was like an empty building.
For next six months I did not
know much of the baby, Mariano and his wife. Through time I just ignored all
the situations and moments lived before and I continued with my daily routines.
I woke up, went to work, to the college and back home. I had adopted the saying
“Long absent, soon forgotten” but this was
destroying me. I used to visit some relatives in Comayagua however I did not
visit my brother. From time to time I watched Jose Guillermo in some pictures. One
day at church the Holy Gospel caught my
attention and sooner I started thinking about “what I was doing” “why should I
continue living in this way”, “I need to fix that, I cannot live in this
situation anymore.”
Hence I reflected on the
testimony I was giving to my family and relatives I thought we need to
reconstruct our relation as a family. The next days I prayed God to change my
heart and forgive my bad behavior, I asked Him to put the right words in my
mouth and forgive everything. I talked with Mariano and Tania for hours and we
end up cried. We hugged and smiled each
other, our reconciliation we shared the plans we had for the next days and the
most important was Jose Guillermo’s baptism. Mariano had planned to celebrate
the baptism here in Tegucigalpa with the family and some friends, we all were
happy talking about this.
Now I share my space and
life with a better attitude, I understood it is good to forgive quickly, it is
healthy for me more than for the others and also I reflected that I wasted my
time instead of loving and giving tenderness to my cute and adorable nephew. I
lost the opportunity to enjoy the first months of Jose Guillermo’s life, I also
learned to love my family; My parents taught us moral but also Cristian values
and I grew up with my brothers surrounded by love. We need to take care and
support each other because does not stop so is better to enjoy simple and
memorable moments. When my brothers and I get older we will have fun
remembering all the different situations we had lived because at the end we had
learned to live.
Life is like a book, every
day is a new story and that one includes the most important thing that you
never forget, family, and by now mine is the most special thing that I have. Since
I knew Jose Guillermo was coming I wondered many new experiences we are going
to live and I realized that our lives would never be the same. However I missed
a couple of months by his side, I understood love is stronger than anything; a
baby changed my point of view of about life and he also has come to make our
family stronger than before, we are together not only for celebrations but when
we need to support each other. By now, I have two nephews and a niece and I
love them because they are really important in my life and they are my
brother’s treasure, so I can say I am still learning to live, to forgive and to
truly love.
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